The most recent post by my boss, best friend and occasional beater of video games caused a subtle movement in my bowels that can only be described as indigestion. For this, I blame a happy upbringing and a cynical society. One of the features that have always made us such a great team is that I always have the opportunity to play the Yin to his Yang… or “Bad Cop” as we’ve mentioned it in the past. You see, sometimes you have to give up a chance to get honor in order to do the most good. Much like Ghost, I agree that this is a thankless job in which my efforts are often seen as horrific without even casual fellacio to show for it. Obviously there is something troubling each and every one of us. It takes a lot of courage to bring it to the surface… a quality that most don’t possess. My unique ability allows me to draw these weaknesses out into the open and stomp them out. Like the fat person who thinks that they’re attractive is only kidding themself. Sure they may be beautiful on the inside.. but that’s a lot to dig through in order to find it and most of us don’t carry around the necessary heavy machinery in order to find it… or for that matter, even a car-jack and flashlight.
I think what’s important to consider is that… as Old Worlders or New Worlders, we all want the same basic things… There isn’t one among us who doesn’t want that feelings of acceptance, security, and orgasms. I do my best to provide each of these to my fellow man (but usually woman). These may be selfless acts, but there should be a sense of self involved in creating a firm foundation (which usually involves working out). While the world may be hurting for not feeling what they can only imagine from seeing in movies, it’s important to remind people that that shit is fairy tales. There is no prince(ss) charming coming to magically wisk you away. There is no way to ‘weight and see’ as you sit around expecting the world to owe you something. If people aren’t capable of standing on their own two feet, then there’s little sense in pushing the wheelbarrow for them. Those who live life by leaning on others learn only to lean. In the end, you’re doing more harm than good. This causes co-dependancy rather than feelings of self-respect that I feel each person should possess. Have I been known to verbally tear people apart? Goddamned right I have… but that doesn’t mean I won’t pick them back up and help put them together again, giving them more focus in their life before I send them on their way.
As to the foundation part… I don’t have all the answers, not even for myself. What I do have is direction and the will to constantly push myself further to meet my own ungodly expectations. While most of the time it doesn’t succeed, I learn from my mistakes and it gives me new directions where necessary. What I’m saying here is… nobody can help others until they learn to help themselves. The same way you can’t explain how to fix a car if you’ve never done it yourself. Empathy and ignorance are a dangerous combination when combined with loose-lips and a moisture detecter on stand-by.
What’s the point of this? Damned if I have one. You know what your problems are.. and if you’re not already working on them… then today’s a great day to start. Nobody should have to shy away from the sad creature staring back in the mirror. People should learn to be proud of who they are. I’m not talking about striving for perfection, I’m talking about becoming who you truly want to introduce yourself as rather than who you wish you could be. Impossibility is just an excuse for never trying.
-Love, Lust, and spoiled Livers,
Felix
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